What a Week!

My first book was released this week on my website and also as an eBook on Kindle. I’ve been busy selling, packaging and shipping  books. It’s been crazy!

Some of my students have purchased my book. I overheard some of them talking about it yesterday. It was surreal knowing that they were discussing a book that I wrote. Then I remembered it’s not just my book, it’s my life they’re reading about.

I’ve wanted to be an author since I was in first grade. I used to tell my mom that I would make millions telling stories about our family, but I never believed  I’d actually write about my life.

It was hard to sit down and write Worthless No More because I had to think about my past and relive some of it in order to adequately write the details. It was scary when I thought about putting it out there and getting it published. Did I really want people to know some of the details of my life that I had kept hidden for so long?

The answer is “no”.

I don’t want people to know the details of my life. I am generally a private person and don’t reveal a whole lot about myself to others.

I do want others to be able to tell there story though and to know they can be better. I want the readers of my book to know there is hope for a better life. I want everyone to know that they are a valuable person, worth being treated well.

I want people to know that no matter how their story is going now, the rest is still unwritten and they have the power to write their own story of healing, wholeness and hope.

It has been one of the best and scariest weeks for me. I’m still in awe that there is a book out there with my name as the author. I’m scared about what people will think about me after reading my story, I just have to remember who I am.

I am no longer the scared, little girl who allowed people to hurt her in the name of love. I am no longer the worthless young adult making bad decisions so that people will love me.

I am priceless.

I am loved.

I am valuable.

I am strong.

I am brave.

I am worthless no more!